Chen (첸) – Portrait of you (널 그리다)

널 그리다

neol geurida
“Portrait of you”
사월, 그리고 꽃 (April, and a flower)
2019.04.01

namunnipe tteoreojineun bitbanguldo
nae mameul muneojige hal kkeonman gata

neoreul geurineun modeun shigandeureul da
moaseo geuriumirago hanabwa
neo eopshi gin bameul beotil jashini eopseo nan
chama mot jiweo namgyeodun geolkka neo hanaman

nae haruga jogeum mojaran deutae
neol wanbyeokage geuryeonaegien
himihan gieokdo sarajilkka deotchilhae
jageun geotkkaji jeonbu neonikka

keoteuncheoreom budeureoun baramkkyeoldo
nae ane gipeun heumeul nael kkeonman gata

neoreul geurineun modeun shigandeureul da
moaseo geuriumirago hanabwa
neo eopshi gin bameul beotil jashini eopseo nan
chama mot jiweo namgyeodun geolkka neo hanaman

ojik neo hanaman

neol geurigo neoreul saegyeoneonneun bam
igeol da geuriumirago hanabwa
yeojeonhi amulji anneun gieogeul neomgida
chama mot jiweo namgin han saram neol geurida

나뭇잎에 떨어지는 빗방울도
내 맘을 무너지게 할 것만 같아

너를 그리는 모든 시간들을 다
모아서 그리움이라고 하나봐
너 없이 긴 밤을 버틸 자신이 없어 난
차마 못 지워 남겨둔 걸까 너 하나만

내 하루가 조금 모자란 듯해
널 완벽하게 그려내기엔
희미한 기억도 사라질까 덧칠해
작은 것까지 전부 너니까

커튼처럼 부드러운 바람결도
내 안에 깊은 흠을 낼 것만 같아

너를 그리는 모든 시간들을 다
모아서 그리움이라고 하나봐
너 없이 긴 밤을 버틸 자신이 없어 난
차마 못 지워 남겨둔 걸까 너 하나만

오직 너 하나만

널 그리고 너를 새겨넣는 밤
이걸 다 그리움이라고 하나봐
여전히 아물지 않는 기억을 넘기다
차마 못 지워 남긴 한 사람 널 그리다

It feels as if even single raindrop off a tree leaf
Could cause my heart to collapse

All the moments I spend drawing you put together
Must be what they call longing
I don’t think I can make it through a long night without you
Was I so unable to make myself erase you?

I feel like there is something missing in my day
For me to be able to draw you perfectly, I paint them over and over again
Afraid I’ll lose even the slightest memory
Because every little thing is you

It feels as if even a breeze softer than curtains
Could cut deeply into me

All the moments I spend drawing you put together
Must be what they call longing
I don’t think I can make it through a long night without you
Was I so unable to make myself erase you?

Only you

The nights I draw you and engrave you in my heart
Must all be what they call longing
Paging through the memories yet to heal
There is one person I’ve been unable to erase, and I draw a portrait of you